Hiya and glad Wednesday! Yesterday was probably the most insanely beautiful day. If I didn’t personal a calendar I by no means would have guessed it was an early February day, because the solar shone brightly, warming as much as a cushty 70 levels with a slight breeze.
Have you ever seen that meme that claims I by no means believed seasonal melancholy was actual till that first fairly day hit and I really feel like I popped a molly? Now, I’ve by no means “popped a molly” or actually even know what precise drug that’s referring to, however I can let you know the levity and optimism that pumped by way of my veins yesterday was a excessive.
First I received to take pleasure in espresso with mother and my Aunt Pat. My Aunt Pat is my dad’s sister and she or he doesn’t stay close by so we don’t get to see her fairly often. She came over my mother for every week and so they got here up for an evening. What a deal with. Aunt Pat is sharp as a whip, a superb bridge participant, and plenty of of her mannerisms remind me of my Grandma Betty (her mother). The entire go to was so good and left me feeling really glad. Household is the perfect.
They took off within the morning and the ladies and I did our college work earlier than taking off to Hailey’s piano lesson. Whereas she realized, I walked Finley by way of the Furman campus. I reveled within the sunshine and Finley reveled within the additional scratches and coos from younger faculty youngsters excited to see a canine. The campus was bustling and energetic.
David and I exercised within the afternoon with the doorways and home windows broad open. The youngsters ran out to play with mates within the woods. I had a spring impressed dinner deliberate (Hailey’s request, Cobb salads) which I made with the home windows ajar. We completed off this excellent day with Kaitlyn’s first ever softball apply, which she left utterly lit up with the enjoyment of her new beloved sport.
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It was a very nice day.
Over this previous yr I’ve given quite a lot of thought to pleasure and contentment. Making a giant transfer is admittedly arduous in quite a lot of methods, irrespective of the catalyst. Being that ours was self motivated introduced a lot of its personal challenges within the type of fear or doubt. Nothing pressured us into this; had been we making the best selection? It’s a problem, however a worthy one, to spend time discovering our priorities after which steering our lives in a route that matches them.
I received’t cheapen how tough this may be, as there are such a lot of components to contemplate when making massive, life altering choices. David and I proceed to wrestle with some selections that really feel scary to contemplate, however I feel this previous yr has confirmed to me that we do maintain actual energy in our personal lives. If we really yearn for one thing totally different that our present actuality, and it’s vital sufficient to us, then we can and may make actual strikes towards it and belief God within the course of.
My supply of pleasure on this season of my life appears to be like totally different than in different seasons, because it naturally ought to I suppose. I’m discovering contentment in quieter locations. Some issues bringing me deep satisfaction lately are out of doors hikes, doing faculty and life facet by facet with my rising women who nonetheless definitely want grownup steering however are shortly and marvelously turning into probably the most unbelievable little individuals energetic and marvel, conversations with David on life, objectives, and time and the way greatest to spend them, studying new issues that make me slightly nervous like gardens and chickens, quiet mornings with Finley snuggled up at my facet, and connecting with group and forging friendships rooted within the reality of every particular person exhibiting up as they’re with no pretense.
Possibly it’s age or possibly it’s development, however I really feel I’m in search of and settling right into a calmer model of happiness. Maybe contentment? I’m not in search of thrills or highs, however noticing absolutely the magnificence within the strange moments. And I would even be beginning to perceive how individuals like birdwatching. Ha. However really. Possibly birdwatching is taken into account a grandma behavior as a result of it highlights that you just’ve gotten to a stage in life the place you understand how candy it’s to decelerate a bit and easily benefit from the wonderment of the issues that encompass us.
In my fifth decade of life I can extra simply see the seasons of life and the enjoyment of leaning into every one whereas we’re in it. I don’t lengthy to be a university child once more however smile after I suppose again with gratitude that I received to stay that chapter in all it’s pleasure of getting into what looks like full independence. I don’t lengthy to be a brand new mother to a child and toddler once more (most days… some days I recall solely the highlights of that season and never the challenges and completely dream to spend a day in that actuality once more) however am in awe that I received to stay that life for a chapter.
My thoughts now’s targeted in on this season. How can God use me to greatest present up on this season as a younger 40-something spouse and mother to a teen and a tween. Who can I positively influence and the way, so {that a} decade from now I look again with satisfaction on how I confirmed up for myself and the individuals I like on this season?
Anyway… that’s what been occupying my thoughts. Discovering my peace, defending it, leaning into development and questioning how greatest to be a lightweight for others… whereas additionally driving youngsters to practices, determining what’s for dinner, and entering into mattress by 9:30 so I’m not a grump the following day 😉
And with that, it’s time to get off the sofa and and get transferring. I hope your day in the present day is a stunning one; thanks for stopping by <3
